I really need a new picture of me on here, but then again i never update it so i guess it doesn't matter. i suppose i should write to get everything out but i think crying and being a 'girl' about everything works better for me but hey i'll try it...    My mom has completely dicked me over in a new way i would have never thought possible. After telling me sinse 7th grade that she had opened up a college savings account for me she tells me 2 weeks ago that she "never said that". um? what? and the only college savings thingy she has ever opened was the publix Upromise thing. alright, now, i work at publix. and i know she opened that damn thing like a year ago, which means i have like $20 max in there. she's so fucking gay. and when i ask her,"so how am i go to pay for college?" she laughed at me! she laughed! and said uhhh student loans? fuck that, i just wont go to school. I mean if she would have told me that, i would have been able to start saving for college a long ass time ago. but since i was under the impression that it was paid for, i didn't even think twice! and, the she has the nerve to tell me she is going to start chargin me rent once i graduate? are u fucking serious? so that on top of my cell phone bill, car payments, car insurance, gas, and birth control, not to mention any other things that i need, i might as well go live in a hole and never go anywhere. whatever i just don't care, i'll find something to do. Also, another thing that has ruined my plans for this summer, my dad's girlfriend's sister just moved into their house... in my room. so my plan for not living here and at my moms for summer... gone. like i said, i just don't fucking care anymore, about anything. and one more thing, maybe it's because of the mood i am in or maybe it's because i am just a bitch ( i think its the second one) please, don't bother commenting if all you want to tell me a story about how your life is so much worse, because to be quite honest, i don't give a shit. i didn't write all of this to have a 'WHOSE LIFE SUCKS MORE!' contest with anyone. i just wrote it to get it out of my head so that i might be able to stop stressing about everything and be able to sleep at night. have nice day.